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Friday, September 23, 2005
Life when I'm left at home.

I've been staying home very frequent this week, or perhaps during this exam period. I return home almost immediately after each paper - not so much on revision, but to catch up with sleep. Recently, the weather is so unpredictable. It can be all so sunny now but rain cats and dogs later. I enjoy rainy days but I'm very much afraid of the thunders and lightnings that comes with it. I remembered being left stunned in the bed on Wednesday afternoon and all that I could do was to self-comfort.

Yesterday night, I received a sms from a friend of mine telling me of how she's feeling and I feel her situation in me. Towards her, I totally salute the ability of keeping herself strong in the midst of exams and how she battle at home daily. Sometimes, I couldn't help but question God why. But I know everything happens for a purpose. I wish that I had the ability to be like those heros that appears in every show - to rescue her and to give her the dream life she wants, yet, I myself, is very much limited with the ability and courage to do so. In short, it is wrong of my thinking in my part.

This morning, I woke up with a nightmare that its images seems so real, so scary. I've been having weird dreams lately, and they all surrounds my life - school, friends and shows that I watch.

Finally, after so long a time, I chatted with Shuping today! Yes, she brightens up my day and left me to express out how much I missed her. I talk to the whole world except her; I see the whole world on Saturdays but see her only from afar. I miss time spent with her, but we've promised hanging out after my final exam! :D A short extract of our conversation::

*Part 1
jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
i talk to the whole world except you!
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
i see the whole world on sat but see you from afar only
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
can you see how sad i am?
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
hahah
unreal says:
hahaha...you're so funny
unreal says:
yeah..working life really sucks big time...makes you really veri shag man
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
hahah
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
after so long a time, i still read you saying me funny!
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
okay, i shall be your funny girl for life then!
unreal says:
hehe...
unreal says:
miss talking to you alot
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
heheheh

*Part 2
.jia* a life of worship I want to exude. [45] says:
nvm! youre on duty this week! im on duty this week!
unreal says:
haha..that's all matters rite?

HEHEHE. Adding on will be tonight having dinner with Puay - buying two packets of XXL Chicken, to satisfy my craving AGAIN, and we'll just find somewhere, sit down and munch! Simple life like this make me enjoy. (x

Talking to Shepherd this morning gave me food for thought. Though she did not share so much of her life during O level, I know how worried she is for my coming examination. And I was being defensive, I would say, from the replies I gave her. Ah, WHY! So I shall heed her advice and off am I to study NOW! :D ...ilovemyshepherd!

maoed.
at 11:14 AM